Just imagine a baby boy who lost his mother. When he became aware that there is no mother in his life, but, given a beautiful and sweet, well attended substitute. Happened to be mother's sister. And all the wealth and most desirable position is guaranteed for him. To others, he appeared to be the happiest baby, because he had everything a man could want. So, he couldn't express that deepest sorrow that he really had no way to actually meet his own birth mother. And be nursed or sleep in her arms safely, comfortably,... he couldn't get to know how she smells, how she talks, how beautiful she looks, how she touches, how she sings lullaby for him, how she loves him....
One day he discovered, that she died because she gave the birth to him, the delivery caused the infection and high fever, and caused the death.
He couldn't possibly live with this information that his own existence in this world caused the life of the parson he most wanted to be with ! His own mother !!
He couldn't express his feelings to peers, he became a quiet child and deep thinker in young age. He kept all that to himself. He tried to fulfill father's expectations, and married with a very beautiful good friend he loved so much, and waited to have a child, so the heir is there to satisfied the need of Royal family.
He was so patient, he endured the pain for very long time. He decided to wait for the time to come.
He left the family he absolutely loved one day, because he really needed to get the answer why his life started that way, and why anyone had to die because of him. Why is human life that way, why happiness is not given automatically, why the way people fight, ..why?
To make the long story short; He got it ! There is no separation, no death. All is ONE.
He invited his family to live together again. Happy ending !
But, it was a very long and lonely journey, tough....
Once you get it, all the rest will fall into places. It just is that way !